Can you die of grief?

My poor Latte died too....just awhile ago. =( He must have been so lonely since Expresso passed on just yesterday. My heart is so heavy but I can't cry anymore. Feel very numb...



Last tribute to beloved Latte - we'll miss him horribly too. More so now we have none of them with us. (Sniff...) ='(

Rest in peace dearest Latte.
Passed on 25_09_2008; 6.00pm xoxoxo

Broken Heart ??

You lighted up my life,
With your big, round, beautiful
soulful eyes,
With squeaks and squeals - annoying
at times but delightful in its own way,
Making me love you, squirming your way
into my heart.















Coffee madness, That's
what I named you & your mate,
Expresso and Latte,
My expression of love for coffee -
and for furry cuties such as yourself.
Now Latte is all alone - on his own,
And I cannot help feeling the same,
Do I ever regret? - I should have cuddled you
carried you & pampered you
When the sun was still nigh...


Broken Heart,
Is this how it feels?
When we regret something time cannot change,
When we wish things were done -
a little bit differently,
When it is too late....
to cry one's eyes out?


***Rest in peace dearest Expresso. You'll be sorely missed.
Passed on 24_09_2008; 7.30pm xoxoxo

Christmas!!! ....is round the corner =)

I have lately joined my church's (The Life Chapel, Section 17) choir. So we'll be performing for this Christmas. Hahaha.....So far the songs are AMAZING!! I just cannot wait till our next practice session. =p

So if any of you guys reading my blog are interested to see me sing or just curious for the matter, do contact me ok? I'll be most happy to know you wanna attend our Christmas Cantata 2008!! Do contact me yea?

Oh, lately I'm also been keeping myself busy by learning Flash CS3 and also crocheting. Hahaha....I've always wanted to do crocheting but never had the time. Now, time is ALL I have. Hehe....Yaay to me!! Banzai!!

Reflection time ...

Bloggie dearie,

Lately I have been going through this rough patch in my life. Nothing special, nothing new...just part of this new phase of life that I am in at the moment. Have been mulling it over and over again....have looked at it from top, bottom, side-to-side (every angle possible to me)....trying to solve it.

And I realised that I haven't been looking at it from God's point of view. Talking to certain people - my husband, my parents, older people I respect & good friends of mine - they all (directly or indirectly) sorta pointed me back to where I should be looking at in the first place.

" The LORD is my strength &
my shield;
my heart trusts in him, & I am
helped.
My heart leaps for joy
& I will give thanks to him in
song." (Ps28:7)

Then again I am reminded that I should have never lean on my own strength, my own knowledge and my own power to overcome what I should in the first place, put....totally in HIS hands. I am ashamed. But I know He will forgive me & will never forsake me. That is one thing that I find comfort in...so very much. No matter how far I've wandered away, He will still take me back, love me & forgive me - because that is who He is.

Today as I was doing my reading, I find this verse giving me comfort & assurance that no matter how things turn out in the end, He is the one who knows best & He is looking our for me. ^_^ Now I would like to share it with you too, bloggie dearest. =)


" When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze."

My wedding...

For those of you who knew about it and were also there for my big day, it was on the 10th November 2007. It was a church wedding, with all the frills and flowers as usually is seen in most church weddings. Some friends commented that it was so much like a fairytale wedding. ^_^ I myself wasn't sure because of the stress....which got me so preoccupied and single-minded focus on just surviving the day that I did not notice much.

However, there was one thing that I would like to share. =) My husband (at that time fiance.. =p) ....he gave me such a nice, romantic surprise till I dunno what to do but cry on the spot! It was so touching and really...such a BIG SURPRISE!! Honestly, I didn't expect that from him since he's quite a shy guy, which likes to attract the least attention from people. HAHA.... So it really hit me big time. And I was teased afterwards.... "How come you cried even before he started singing?" Haha..... How couldn't I?

That's why I love him so much!! He is always trying to give me little touching surprises everytime when I totally do not expect it coming. ^_^

Married?!?

It was a loooooooong time ago since I've updated my blog. Sorry bloggie dearie, I've been so bz bz bz with work and also the big "W"!! Hahaha...

Its my wedding!! My goodness....I can't believe I'm gonna be married in like what.....less than 2 weeks? =p Hehe. Most of the preparations are almost done - though most were done in a rush. Oh but who cares? Hehe.....I'll be married soon!

But the saddening thing is that I'll have to be resigned to be called 'aunty' from now on. Haha...Newayz, am vy vy looking forward to my big day! Ta-ta for now. Will update more as time pass...^_^

Reflection on the Weekend & Pain

Last weekend I was in church for our annual OA(Orang Asli) Youth Camp. On the whole, it was really good! Even with the rush of last minute preparations and running around, the organizing committee managed to make the entire camp a successful and enjoyable event!

On Sundaynight which was the Fun-Nite, the OA kids really did have fun. =) I personally felt that it was a good time for them to come out of their cliques and just have plain, unadultrated, mind-blowing F-U-N! ^_^ We had singing from some of the groups, rap and some were even brave enough to put up a sketch for the audience! And I tell you...it is not easy for these shy, quiet kids to even talk loud enough for you to hear their names. =) Praise God for His leading and blessings.

On Fun-Nite we had BBQ for dinner. That was the beginning, the alpha, the genesis of my misery. When I woke up the next day (Monday), I vomited. And I found that it was the dinner from the night before. Throughout the rest of the day, I had bad tummy cramps and I cannot remember how many times I ran to the toilet. By the time I reached home, I only had enough strength to bathe and collapse onto my nice, comfy, soft and super inviting bed. Now when I look back, I didn't even enjoy the outing to the Eye on Malaysia we had on Monday afternoon.



I totally slept Monday away, and into Tuesday. And even though I felt much more alive on Tuesday, a little effort like walking from my room out into the living hall was just too much for me. I kept on making short but sweet..... yeah rite, who am I kidding? =p Well, short and not sweet at all trips to my poor, abused WC. (Dear WC, I promise, cross my heart and hope to die that I will, at all cost wash and scrub you till you're all clean and sparkly this Saturday!) If I ever write a short story on the autobiography of a WC, I think I sorta know which angle it should be approached from.

But as my title states "reflection"....the final word is, I have forgotten how it is to experience the pain and suffering of being sick and confined to bed. And now I would want to praise our ever loving, merciful and forgiving Father in heaven, for giving me the strength to recover, for my loving family members who worried and cared for me, for my darling fiance who also worried as much if not more than my family and for dear friends who still remembered me when I felt as though I was dead and 6feet down under, sleeping in the damp, soft and moist earth. Thank you, Father for everything and especially the life that I have everyday which I tend to take for granted. Amen! ^_^

My Work as I call it

Many of my friends have asked me, time and again..."Hey Shir Li, what do you exactly do?" And there are times I do really think whether or not these people care enough to remember or even bother to really listen when I tell them what do I do for my bread and butter.

BUT...Yes, I know that we are all humans after all - and forgetful ones at that! ^_^ And as the saying goes....'To err is human'. So my dear, dear friends and fellow bloggers (Oh, and visitors too ;> ) this post I would lovingly, with honour and reverence dedicate it to explaining about what I really do. Hahaha.... Oh, btw this idea was given by a mate of mine. (Thx man!)

I have recently officially graduated from the title of 'Student' to 'Working Young Adult'. Hooray for the smooth transition from one level to the next!! =) So basically, I'm now having the degree of BSc. (Ed.) which in normal English and less glamorous terms just means - I'm your everyday, normal (at times irritating & naggy) teacher. However, I would prefer to tag myself as an educator. I was having my practical teaching (basically a trainee teacher) from the last week of April till the 2nd week of July - and I can definitely tell you, it was the most exciting thing that I did in the whole duration of my 4 year degree course!!

Though I was officially still a student, I was already working (freelance contractor) as a cpoywriter for this online e-magazine. You can check it out if you like - http://www.uglam.com. This is a website which focuses on the latest fashion, lifestyle and it is also an online shopping mall. Sort of cool if you like online shopping. Anyway, just check it out and throw me some comments if you do have any. I also did some freelance scriptwriting for a land developer (Gamuda Land - Bandar Botanic) through the agency that liaise with them.

So since I took up this job, I have had some seriously great opprtunities to meet up face-to-face with our local artistes and famous people. If you are registered as friends in my Friendster account, you would know what I mean - people like Amber Chia, Daniel Tan, Victor Lee and a few more. Its really cool to get to see these people in the flesh. But after awhile, the novelty of it kind of wears off. After all, they are all normal people...just with the opportunity and talent to make it to the silver screen.

Now, in addition to the copywriting that I'm doing for the company I'm in....I'm also doing freelance writing on the web and also blogging. Hahaha....as stated in my 1st post, I just adore writing. So that was why I finally started my own 'lil bloomin' bloggin' site. ^_^ v

So I hope the looooooooong post this time will manage to clear up some things about me and what am I doing currently to survive and stay at least decently clothed. Haha!! Just kidding. ;)

New Blog on the Block!!

Errr.... Ummm...... Hahaha!! There you have it! My VERY FIRST post!! ^_^ Not to worry, there will be more interesting topics to come. Actually I started this blog to pick up my creative writing after stopping so many, many years ago.

I really, really love writing. When I was still in school (during Form 4&5), I used to write ALOT!! But when I got into 6th Form....things just started getting more and more hectic. And before I knew it, I had already stopped writing. From then on, I have always been too busy or just too caught up with other more interesting things to pick it up once more.

However, when I was offered a job as a copywriter...I realised that I still LOVED writing! So since I've already graduated from university and doing freelance writing, I thought, "Why not? There is nothing on Earth that I have to lose from blogging (Psst... not that I have money to lose either. Haha!!)". And to cut the long story short, here I am....blogging my merry little fingers away.